Obstacles in the Way of Self-Transformation

This post will serve as an introduction to the obstacles to dreamworld mediation and inner transformation. These obstacles of the mind are constructed by our own individual need to create a predictable and “safe” version of consensual reality that we are comfortable with. External obstacles that have been imprinted/implanted into our minds by people can also be referred to as occult groups that have the “Knowledge” and know how to reconfigure reality to their suiting. Social media and the internet have made this easier for them. They can drive change at a turn of a switch where before they patiently labored sometimes for centuries to produce the sort of change they desire. The most recent significant one being the death of the Christian religion in terms of belief. There are still the structures and “traditions” in place, but they are shells of what they once were. People believe the church influences politics; instead, it is the other way around. The system has locked down control over its old enemy—religion and inserted its doctrine. The religion of fear. I will discuss Christianity and religion more in-depth in next week’s post.

Energy is created by thought/emotion; thought is created by concentrated consciousness energy. In free form without thought or constant emotional content attached to us, find ourselves with inexhaustible energy. Most of the people’s lives today are mainly lived unconsciously. Many people aren’t even aware of their actions and whether they are harmful actions to others or not. This unconscious network is created through emotional attachments through traumas (defined as either good experiences or bad). These traumas and emotional attachments create demons through thoughtform or the concentrated effort of thought to produce a being (children can be seen as a physical thoughtform). The argument being is that we had little choice in the matter; we received no guidance on how to navigate the things we don’t understand. That is true. But now we can do something about it or remain a victim to the unconscious forces that mostly have been a constructed effort of a system that wants you to be a slave to it.

The initial decision to act must be a concentrated conscious decision to act and prompt the kind of life change you desire. This concentrated conscious decision will give you the energy to start and finish the trial. The duration of the trial will depend largely on the individual person. I have found that the percentage of extroversion vs. introversion gives a clue to how deep the person will have to go and how much needs uncovered in order to receive what is needed. I suggest taking the Myer-Briggs test to know the percentage of introversion and extroversion. If you have smaller introversion, the trial could be relatively simple, and the information needed to free you somewhat easy to find. If more introverted, it could take years of effort to find what you are looking for.

When first beginning the mediation, it will be a battle against all the demonic forces within that don’t want you to enter, but through the energy produced by the concentrated conscious effort you will breakthrough. You have to not give up and keep ordering the mind to surrender. When you are finally able to break through the dreamworld, you enter will likely be very vivid and lifelike. This indicates the unconscious portion of the mind dedicating electricity to its function and thus stealing your energy. The more vivid, the more energy is being siphoned off by the unconscious mind that serves you no other purpose than to torment you and bind you in servitude to the powers that be. There are dangers down here as many of the things you will meet in this world haven’t been created by you but are implanted beings inserted into your mind from either a subliminal source or an external trauma induced by an interaction with the world you didn’t understand. This is why in the previous post, I encourage starting with finding the spirit animal (ego) because it will always keep your best interests in mind (it is naturally egotistical) and keep you safe, only allowing acceptable amounts of danger needed for personal growth.

One can wander in the dreamworld’s depths and never find what is needed for personal success. This often happens because people don’t understand the nature of this underworld. It is largely fueled by emotion. In my personal experiences, I have wasted much time here because I thought I needed something, but it turned out to be a fruitless waste of time. When I started to make real headway was when I realized I didn’t have control of certain emotional triggers in my life. The social justice warrior finds wrong in the external world because of their trigger, and I found the wrong in myself. It didn’t matter what it was; sometimes it was opinion, whether it be about politics or race relations I found if I was triggered by a person’s opposing opinion, I found that opposing opinion I had been triggered by the idea deep inside of me. It doesn’t mean that I held that opposing belief; rather, it likely means it was implanted in me over the course of my youth/life. I confronted this implanted idea and released the energy associated with it. That was what kept me going each time I found a trigger and meditated upon it; I released more energy to do the things I wanted to do in life. I have gone further than most will need to or have to, but that is because of my own individual success is determined upon sharing this information.

My advice is to use day to day interactions, whether at work or with your family, to find those triggering areas. Each time you feel emotionally triggered, concentrate your consciousness upon the trigger emotion when you meditate, and you will journey toward it playing out either an underworld scenario or reveal a past life where that particular emotion was attached. The emotion doesn’t have to be reenacted to produce the effect in the mediation, the memory of how it felt is enough.

Meditation and journeying into the dreamworld

We are going to go into the dreamworld also called the otherworld and the underworld. These lands are populated by elements from our conscious lives and from the unconscious. This subconscious is like a playground for the two (conscious and unconscious) to mingle and meet. Most of the time it is not a kind interaction. We are most familiar with this interplay between the two life driving forces while we sleep. Dreams are often viewed as projections of the day’s events, nonsense, and profound spiritual experiences. These are all right but are as incomplete as the dreams themselves. In most people’s dreams, their conscious version of self which is how they see themselves is overwhelmed by the unconscious forces of their psyche which are either represented by hypersexualized symbols, violence, ridiculously strange, fragmented memories from childhood and or a combination of all of these at once.

All these things represent really a life half lived. It is our job to go into these worlds while consciously awake to extract the information about our selves the unconscious has locked away. It can be viewed as an adventurous journey as most adventure tales have the hero facing similar content in order to transform him/herself.

When I began my own journey, I was skeptical mainly because of my strong aversion to new age babble. To me there was something wrong with them at the time I couldn’t put my finger on it. Later I came to realize their spiritual process had become decadent and self-indulgent. But this is beside the point because they like every faulted being on the planet myself included have their merits and something to teach. A friend had recently had a strong schizophrenic episode and I noticed there were strange connections in what he was saying. He at a previous time had rambled about Cain and Abel. I found this odd because I don’t believe he knew anything about Cain and Abel at any time before. There could be an argument that it was inserted unconsciously into his mind at some point. That might be true, but it still doesn’t invalidate what I am saying as the unconscious mind has completely overpowered a person in a schizophrenic episode because of their weak sense of conscious identity. So, I theorized that I could find him. I didn’t know what that meant or how to do it, but I was aware of certain visualization mediation practices sometimes referred to as Shaman mediation. There was not a lot of academic reference material as beyond Carl Jung most dismiss it as childlike or spiritual babble. I typed in Shaman journeying into Amazon. It was there I found a simple book, a short book by Sandra Ingerman called Shamanic Journeying. What I liked right away as it had good reviews but also, she used her name. Many of these new-age types pick some spiritual names they have been granted in the otherworld. So, I bought it.


When the book arrived, I read it quickly as it was short (98 pages total). At the time it seemed too simple but in retrospect, I now understand the author knew and understood what she was talking about through experiences.

I have an open mind, so I was going to go in with no expectations. I found a mediation track that I liked. There are endless options, it is best to find one that speaks to you, individually. In below link was the one I used and still use on occasion today.


It took me a long time to be able to still my mind and body to be able to breakthrough into the dream world while preventing from falling asleep. I would say it took me about thirty minutes to “go under”. Once I did, I was transported to a forest with a clear river running through it. I proceeded to try to swim across the river but was taken under by an unknown current.

The process of going under is relatively simple. One must find the appropriate track with lots of drumming and vibrating instrumentals. This does something to the brain waves and allows the conscious mind to be influenced to look internally and be awake while dreaming. You will need darkness; I use an eye mask now as it makes it easier to settle into complete darkness. Deep rhythmic breathing helps. I do a deep breath through my nose hold for three to five seconds and release through my nose. I repeat this until my mind settles down and relaxes. It helps settle the eyes as well as they will continue to “look outward” for some kind of stimuli once they relax the dream world is formed.

Once I finally relaxed and was able to journey downward, I was pulled under the river. I won’t go into all the details as this was a personal experience. But I was rewarded by discovering the location of my friend. He was trapped in the level of hell known as Filth. I was under for over an hour. The next day, I was under for an hour and half. I went really deep into the collective unconscious. This was dangerous. If someone tells you that mediation isn’t dangerous, they have likely remained in only the safe/comfortable places of their psyche. I journeyed deep and when I came back found my speech was erratic and strange. It was as if I had received a concussion. That is the closest sensation I can relate the experience to.

The recommendations from my experiences are to first visualize a door of some sort the concentration on a door becomes almost like a mantra and helps relax the brain’s initial panic. Once the door appears, open it and step into a scene in nature the provides peace. Again, this nature scene helps relax the defenses of the conscious mind further. The first few times, I journeyed into the dream world I alone. After the second mediation, I realized there were hidden dangers here and needed a source of grounding. This is when I discovered the use of the spirit animal. The term spirit animal was a revolting concept originally to me because of the new age spiritual use of it that perverts the true purpose. The spirit animal is really the symbolic manifestation of your ego. The ego wants for its own use to help you reach your full potential and is a safe anchor to going to far. It will pull you back if needed. The third time I went under I found my animal. This is done by being in the nature scene and calling out for it to come to you. You must ask it three times if it is your animal. You will ask its name and the message it has for you. From here on out while journeying if you encounter some overwhelming danger it will be your ally and come to your aide. The second time, I actually used my father’s animal as he had recently become interested in this sort of thing. It didn’t work well, and his animal was angry at having to come to my aide.

This is the first step to self-transformation by being able to consciously interact with the unconscious aspects of self without being a victim to it. In this dreamworld, it allows you to alter, change, and remove parts of the unconscious mind. It also allows you to find traumatic aspects of self that were inserted into the unconscious by external sources in order to maintain a system control over your decisions and mind.